R.I.P MJ!!

So shocked when i heard the news about Micheal Jackson.. I think the news about Micheal Jackson will make people around the world sad....I am not his super fans, but he accompany me since i was a child.. I love his music! His famous moonwalk! He is King of Pop!! and also a legend!! He very hardworking... He want to show all people his passion towards the music industry... I think people all respect him... Our world now lost a legend... Rest In Peace!! Micheal! We all love you!!!

Amanah Gang Gathering!!

Wow.... i had been few months dint meet my secondary skul, I finally have a chance to hang out with them.... it also a farewell for our gang member, Yuen Ling... She will further study at Melbourne, Australia... And also for Wei san Birthday... So we hang out at 20th jun, at the Gardens Red Box for sing K.... We realli have great time!!


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The day has come!

Just finished my final exam about 6 days... I got some feeling... That i might failed some subjects...Well, Thats true...

Today, I just get some called from my college...

Raveen: "Hi, Chin kuan, i am Raveen, This is a called from NIO."

" I know it"

"Sorry to tell you that you need to resit for Math 2 paper."

"Uhmmm, Okay, well, need to paid 500 for the resit paper??"

"Yup, You need to!"

Haiz, such a short conversation make me mad... What to do?? 500 gone. Luckilly i din spend all my money yet. I not surprise, Cause this is not the first time i failed.. Especially for math, I really hate math, for no reason.. Actually i gave up the night b4 i go for the exam.... Haiz.... I promise myself i will be more hardworking next time!! I won't failed any other subjects next semester!! I have more pro subject to study next time, like Clinic, PR, Optometric instrument, ocular disease..... Feel like i cant handle all these things.. Can i?? People always tell me to trust myself.. I tried many times. I can't... i know my biggest enemy now is myself... Then how?? Go killed myself?? Stupid!! Why i have all those stupid toughts? Paranoid... Always thinks so much!! No one can help me now, only myself!!

I really cant figure out what am i doing recently. I had no interested anything in my life.. Not a single thing.. Last time i used to interested playing online games, watching video online, hang out with friends.. But... Now i not interested in single thing.. My life just likeEMPTY!!

My soul had gone, no where, I cant get back my soul....... i try... Perharps one day, i might change... Hopefully.....




Well!! Good Night Everyone!!
Feeling better when i share all my feelings and put in my blog!!

Troubles

She is cute.

She is caring.

She is very talkative.

She is funny.

She is lovely.

and She is childish.

She is my Grandmother. 82 years old this year. Lot of wrinkles crawling on her face, but she always look young for me. She softspoken. She always want grab our attention to her. She always do things that is unreasonable, funny and always want to my mom angry. But all these things are seem history of my familly.

Recently, due to her health condition, she had to stay with us. As first, i tot i was good to another familly member joinning us, but i was wrong, it actually causing a lot of trouble to our familly. Now our familly, had to take care of her from day to night. We bought her wheelchair. Now i suspect her Alzheimer disease, She now always forget things. She forgot our names b4, that made us more worry. We have to remind her plenty of time what had she done. Her attidude totally change now, she just like a children that keep complaining things, mumbling to herself, love to play games that even a child din't play. ( for example she love to collect tissue paper. -.-"") I think most of my friend that noe me well noe that i have serious familly problem, because of that, my parents always having bad mood... But still she still always talking loudly, mumbling, complaining she dun have food to eat, etc etc. My mom almost crazy, she want to sent her to old folk house. It seem so bad, but she din't. I noe my mom wont do tat, it just because the stress....

Yesterday, once i came back, i saw her almost falling down, luckilly i came back on time, she sat on the ground. Doing nothing. She can't stand up. Almost wanted to cry. I am so worried, and i cant do anything to help her. I saw her keep trying to stand up. When i want to help her, she will say dun worry, i will stand up myself.

....... 1 hour later she still cant stand up, i feel myself really useless, i want to grab her up and put her in the bad, everytime i help, she scream for pain... And she got osteoporosis, i scared if i use too much of energy will break her bone. So have to call people to help. I was thinking why i so useless.. zzzz...

Afterthat, after my sis bf helping her up, she was ok now. She come to thank me for yesterday, she was grateful that she was grateful that i was come in time, and she said i am the dearest grandson of her.. Oh my! What i had done?? i just stand beside and doing nothing.. Why she always proud of me... Proud of what?! Haiz, i feel very very sorry to her. Now what i can do is take good care of her..She always apologize to us, causing so much of trouble. I really understand she not purposelly. That is how kind my grandmom is. May the god bless her! Hope she healthly always.....

Meaningful words and picture

Life is short
forgive quickly
kiss passionately, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling

Found out something really meaningful for us.. Hope u all enjoy it!
Good niteZzzZzz

Disaster finally over

Wow, i am so buzyy!! till no time write any post in the blog!! Haiz, wondering why i always busy for exams, presentations and assignments.. ZzzZz... if got time also write blog.. haha, dunno wat topic to write... no energy to think what i suppose to write... well, i still got 2 exams have to go through.... My 2 "lovely" subjects math and computer programming! Wondering when can i have a break.. T__T.. some1 help me

So abstract

Finally, Valentines is over. As usual valentines seem very normal for me, cause i still single, so i dun really even care. 14th February, i spent my whole day doing stuff. 6.00 am, force myself to wake up and be ready go to the college. 8.30 am, physiology class start, my classmates seem no time to think how to celebrate valentines. well, class going on until 4.00pm. lol, all of us going very tired and sleepy after Dr. professor swamy class and computer programming class. Dunno what these 2 lecturer talking about and i dun even care, coz i promise myself will revise back at home. 6.00pm reach home, first thing i did was open the switch of my pc, and bath. I cant wait to log in my msn, waiting someone to online and wishing her happy valentines, but i am very childish. Wait whole night, she din't appear, at the end, just gave up, and focused on my computer programming assignment. That's what is about the whole valentines for me, boring and dissapointed.

Something happen in college. I argued with my friends. For a reason, i am talking too rough to a classmates the she like. What the hell! i think people that know me really well know that i love to say 'eat shit', and this word i normally use it for joking. i din't know what had i done wrong. But i dun want to cause too much conflict, and at the end, i said sorry. But, i feel very unfair. i think this friend is really mad in love. Sometimes love help us to see things clearly, see a person's attidude. i very tired to have this type of friend. Love is so abstract and undefine.

Recently the news that surprise me the most the news about the Chris Brown hiting her girlfriend Rihanna. I wondering why Chris Brown want to hit her Rihanna, i thought love suppose to be loving each other, i think most of the guy want to protect her gf. Very very dissapointed with Chris Brown, he was my favourite singer.

Thats what about love, make ppl mad, making people insane, and causing people out of control.
But for me, it is better to learn how to love yourself before you love someone. Well, gonna continue study math, Tuesday gonna have exam again. Wish all the couples happy valentines altough it is a bit late


Good Nite Everyone!!

Happy CNY!

Wow, finally Ox year is come! I really busy for these moment, working in world of feng shui for the whole CNY break. Well, that not that bad actually, i find out something happen that are good. I cant imagine that one of my customer whose i dealing with, can become 1 of my friend. I think she are 40+ years old, i was promoting all kind of zibead for her, and at last, we are talking many other things, she tell me about the course tat i studying now, and she said tat opthometry course are v good for me, and she told me to find her in singapore if i want find job, so i really cant belif it. So let see thing in positive way always, alotugh i spent my whole holiday for working, but i earn money and i get to noe friends.

Altough i this post is a bit late in the CNY, but i hope all of my friend happy CNY!

Gud nite!

Gossips

WoW, finally i get into a job, becoz of this job, i had no time to online that often...

Guess what, i never tot that i can know so many friends, i mean all my coworker, treat really well, like Cindy, sook hoon, wilson, hong, derek, kiat, annie, and so so...

Well, maybe i shuld accept that fact that humans are not tired of talking Gossips. Bad things always come to me wherever i go, the true story is about the relationship thinggy again! Whenever i close to a gal, all ppl around me always said i fall in love with her, WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!

I am not that desparate want a gf! So? Now i think i got what i so called phobia about this gosip. But as a human being, we shuld accept this fact.. Don't we?